La Luzy

Im a full blown adult with many complications in life, having alopecia is one. Maybe, the second one is not being girly enough. So, here is the million dollar question, how do you wig? Baseball caps and hair fibers are really not cutting it now. Im starting to think that corporations won’t give me a job due to my esthetic.

Many young looking men, yes I said men, are out here rocking these wigs with so much pride and yet this grown tomboy doesn’t know where to start. I need a mentor, someone who has the patience of a monk, to please advice and teach me. Society doesn’t need to know how bad I’m suffering, we just need to fake it til we make it!

Not everyone mourns the same, not everyone dies the same, not everyone hurts the same… Today, I lost a friend, more like a second mother and my emotions are not the same. It could be that I am still in a state of shock or just so many deaths around that I am becoming immune to death.

I usually run to the arms of a stranger to feel some sort of comfort, even look for sex to fulfill that emptiness that I find in my soul. Today, I do not want to look for that, today I want to sit and think. Will it make it any better or will it make me feel better no, but it will make realize those wonderful moments I had with her. I just wish from the bottom of my heart that she is in a better place.