Not everyone mourns the same, not everyone dies the same, not everyone hurts the same… Today, I lost a friend, more like a second mother and my emotions are not the same. It could be that I am still in a state of shock or just so many deaths around that I am becoming immune to death.

I usually run to the arms of a stranger to feel some sort of comfort, even look for sex to fulfill that emptiness that I find in my soul. Today, I do not want to look for that, today I want to sit and think. Will it make it any better or will it make me feel better no, but it will make realize those wonderful moments I had with her. I just wish from the bottom of my heart that she is in a better place.